We're All Mad Here

When I'm left alone with my thoughts I often find myself in a very dark place. I start to think about things that I really shouldn't or I over think the simplest things and ruin them entirely. For example:
    Once upon a time, I fell in love with my best friend. Hard. It didn't work out, between us but we stayed close. Most of the time I didn't even think about those feelings I once had but, when I started to hang around another guy I began feeling guilty for having them. Because even though I was't acting on them or anything, they were still in the back of my mind...memories, reflections of feelings that aren't really there anymore. I wondered if that was wrong. "Am I a bad person? I can't really control what goes on in my head. I do enjoy being with this guy but I can't forget the feelings I once had."

I figured out that it IS okay to remember those kinds of things, so long as they don't interfere with my moving forward. 'Cause they're in the past and that's really where they should stay. I can admire them from a distance.

But can you imagine having several of these complex thoughts going on all at once inside your head? As soon as you solve one of these, another takes it's place. Can you imagine that? If you can, you have an idea of what it's like in my head.
Welcome. We're all mad here.
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